I feel like I've entered the phase in my life where I'm no longer waiting for life to happen to me, but starting to make life happen. When we're children, so much of our lives is dictated to us. In young adulthood, we start making more decisions, but somethings are still left to time and chance, such as getting married and finding a good job. Of course, there are opportunities throughout that time for us to figure out who we are and some of the things we want from life, but we're never really forced to. Especially when we get out of high school, many of the activities and hobbies fall away as we discover that we're not as into them as we thought we were when there was an organization spoon-feeding them to us (music, drama, art, etc).
Now, I find myself in a place where I wonder what my interests really are and what I really want to accomplish in life. I can tell you that I used to be interested in music and playing interests, but I don't play/practice them very much currently. Does that mean that I'm not interested any more, or that I'm just not forced or motivated? I'm certain that I have unreached musical potential, but do I care enough to dedicate my time and energy to reach it, or at least approach it?
It seems like I should have a passion in life, something that I look forward to, other than my family and my job. My fear is that if I continue living "comfortably", I'll not be really living, but just surviving. Don't get me wrong, I appreciate that my life is going relatively well currently, but given that it is going well, shouldn't I be utilizing this time do become something better? Maybe I just need to take up crocheting again!
